waiting on Him.
Last night's "feast" for 12 others turned out well. The stove ran out of gas in the middle of me frying up one of the dishes, so we quickly called for the gas company to come and replace the tank. I had been obsessive again and really really wanted beautiful flowers for the table, so went out by taxi quite a ways to Agdao's open market simply to buy a bouquet of yellow daisies...ahh..I smiled taking them home wrapped in newspaper. That little diversion in my packed schedule for those babies was well worth it!!
Here's the lesson for this weekend...and for the rest of my life..!
"..be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him" Psalm 37:7 Jim had told me last night that in prayer he sensed God wanting to tell me to wait and receive right now, instead of trying so hard to achieve. I really took that to heart and laid in bed last night just thinking about what that means. I realized I don't necessarily stop any activities, but there's a stillness of heart and a trust that's deep and quiet that He wants me to have. One thing I realized is that if I don't learn to be still, to wait and to receive from Him I will never go deeper.
i.e. pain..I try so hard to run from it and take on new activities and relationships, but if I learn to be still, wait, and receive, I will learn how TRUE is it that God's grace is sufficient.
i.e. plans...I can keep running with little reflection..but if I learn to be still inside, wait, and receive from Him, instead of just trying to achieve, I can go BETTER and not just good paths.
etc...etc.. but the best thing about God encouraging me to be still and receive from Him is that I'll really learn to KNOW Him. I have these grand ambitions of what I want to do for the next five years, but I've realized that I can come out of that still not knowing Him and boasting of nothing but the accomplishments, and the places I've been. I fell asleep to this verse last night...
"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me., that I am the Lord who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight," declares the Lord. Jeremiah 9:23-24
Here's the lesson for this weekend...and for the rest of my life..!
"..be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him" Psalm 37:7 Jim had told me last night that in prayer he sensed God wanting to tell me to wait and receive right now, instead of trying so hard to achieve. I really took that to heart and laid in bed last night just thinking about what that means. I realized I don't necessarily stop any activities, but there's a stillness of heart and a trust that's deep and quiet that He wants me to have. One thing I realized is that if I don't learn to be still, to wait and to receive from Him I will never go deeper.
i.e. pain..I try so hard to run from it and take on new activities and relationships, but if I learn to be still, wait, and receive, I will learn how TRUE is it that God's grace is sufficient.
i.e. plans...I can keep running with little reflection..but if I learn to be still inside, wait, and receive from Him, instead of just trying to achieve, I can go BETTER and not just good paths.
etc...etc.. but the best thing about God encouraging me to be still and receive from Him is that I'll really learn to KNOW Him. I have these grand ambitions of what I want to do for the next five years, but I've realized that I can come out of that still not knowing Him and boasting of nothing but the accomplishments, and the places I've been. I fell asleep to this verse last night...
"Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me., that I am the Lord who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight," declares the Lord. Jeremiah 9:23-24